Sometimes im amazed at myself too.
明明不开心，但还是顾着强颜欢笑，语句和表情中永远都不会展现出我的悲伤。
为的是什么？就是不想影响我周围的人，因为伤感是居有传染力的。至少我是这么觉得。
I’m sure there would be some people who would think that im lying at times.
As my msn nick could sound sad, but yet when they talk to me.
My sentences are filled with “haha” and what nots, not showing a tinge of sadness at all.
压抑着心情真的不好过，但我好像习惯了这种生活方式。
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Anyway, im feeling really pretty upset now.
Because it seems that its highly plausible (~90%) that my Taiwan trip will be cancelled.
As evident from my friends’ reactions.
They sorta indicated that if the situation were to change for the better, then we would go on with the trip.
But, how could swine flu be cured within 2 weeks?
Or rather, how much better could it get than the situation in Taiwan now?
At least, there is no confirmed cases as of yet.
Though i could roughly gauge that the 1st case would come pretty soon, given Taipei as apopular tourist spot.
But here’s the ironic thing, i’m not really concerned about it having any cases, but rather more concerned that i can’t go if my friends were to abort the plan.
Anw, i have no intentions of blaming them. Im just irritated by how unlucky i could get.
And i feel so shitty now cos it has been my only source of motivation for me to press on with my exams, as I know that a big rewards awaits me.
But now, its all left to nothing.
Just when i finally made up my mind, to use my own resources to go for my first holiday trip to my dream country Taiwan, all these gotta happen. How unlucky could I get.
Its like i just threw $700 into the drain without getting anything in return. Ouch.
And im now an almost bankrupt, and unhappy girl.
.heartands0ul. 